The idea was to just write down my thoughts. But it’s not always easy to categorize my thoughts or pick up a little piece of thought! Some days my thoughts are so tangled and complicated that even I want to ask myself,”How did I get here?” Here’s what made me think today.
I am always busy doing random stupid shit(fact). I do it more when I am tired of overthinking and punishing myself for no reason. By random stupid shit I meant embarrassing myself by doing things that I utterly suck at. I have been hardly criticized for that. Some people may want me to make a joke of myself . The rest don’t care. But the few times I faced criticism,I made a big deal about it.
It was the time when I was in middle school. I bought a scrapbook and gave it to everyone. I wanted to keep that as a memory.That scrapbook had a column where they had to write few lines about me.Everyone wrote nice things but one girl wrote all the things she didn’t like about me. When I saw it I threw my scrapbook away and cried. I believed that many people secretly hated me.
But now I think that I shouldn’t have overreacted back then,rather I should have considered that as an opportunity to improve myself. I wish I had hugged that girl and thanked her for not being fake with me,for pointing to my flaws.